This is the day when everything gets better

 

 

 

I have to be honest…I have been a little reluctant to be as open as I have been in the past. There was a recent thing I wrote that was very vulnerable and open and I ended up getting some horrible attacks after it. 

 

I went through a time when I was pretty much done opening myself to share anything because I was afraid to be imperfect. Imperfection means being real and vulnerable and it can sometimes be a target of criticism from those who are not real, but fake.

 

Through their own self-righteousness, my critics decided that I was no longer part of “the church” and instead of showing the love of Jesus, they worshipped their own arrogance.

 

I was exiled from those who claim to love God and they didn’t realize that by doing so, they were rejecting Jesus too. God met me during that time and gave me so many words of encouragement and joy. He always said that my story would be like a Cinderella story and that means that the best part is just ahead. 

 

It takes courage to be real and imperfect. For a while, I was letting the weight of being “perfect” get the best of me and I kept my silence and kept my faith stories to myself. 

 

But then I got sick of trying to please people and trying to “look” perfect all the time. I got tired of having to hold my words inside, instead of releasing my life song, as I have done for so long. I also got sick of having to defend myself from those who delight in criticism and self-righteous judgment. 

 

When God asked me to follow Him on this journey, He told me not to work, but that my blog was my income. This whole journey was about living by faith in God’s promise. God’s promise to me was to provide and support us while I pressed my faith to His words. 

 

God promised that He would supply it all and that I needed to trust Him as my sole support on this journey. Being obedient in such a way has not been easy and it often caused criticism from those hosting a religious spirit.

 

A promise is a gift. God fulfilled His promise and honored His vows to supply what we needed and more. 

 

It is much more difficult to live by a promise than to go out and make your own way. It takes a conscious effort to rest and believe in what God promised, but the rewards are worth the discomfort of enduring. 

 

Since God was my only hope and all that I had in the world, I chose to follow Jesus to live this way. In return, Jesus promised to support all of our needs and to give me a best-selling book describing the whole process of events. 

 

The financial support to cover our rooms and needs was a promise that God made me when we first started this journey 6 years ago. Even when there was chaos and warfare, God always fulfilled His promise to provide our home. 

 

For all of these years, God has carried us and hugged us close to His heart. It was a nonstop cycle of faith tests that brought me healing from all fear and doubt. There was a terrible pain in facing my fears, but after I faced the fires of putting faith over fear, those fears would be gone and only the promise would remain. 

 

Some people, even those who were very close, ended up resisting God by resisting us on this journey. Yet God always had my back and the more they spoke out against me, the more I was blessed and increased. 

 

Believe it or not, my critics were a huge part of the rise of seeing more than I ever dared to dream come to life. Their constant negative words only caused more blessings to pour out for us to walk through. 

 

Although it is not enjoyable to be persecuted, we can celebrate in those attacks, because they cause the glory of God to rest upon our lives. It is so beautiful to see that gold shine from out of the success that follows suffering. 

 

In the beginning, I only had hope. I hoped that when I went to that hotel room out of obedience to God, He would show up with the money He promised to provide. 

 

I had hoped that if I took the first step, the invisible would become visible and that what I hoped for would appear. I hoped that my obedience, faith, and trust, would cause a solid foundation under my feet to hold me up. 

 

I had nothing left. At that time of my life, I was doomed to become a victim of homelessness and possibly even the loss of my life or my kids. I had nothing else–only hope. 

 

When faced with death and pushed into a corner, I could have chosen to surrender to death and defeat–or surrender to life by hoping. 

 

We have to choose whether or not to hope or give into fear or have hope. I chose to hope because that is not how I wanted this story to end for me or my kids. I chose to hope in God’s promise and that was all it took. 

 

God showed up just like I hoped. I kept hoping as the days would go by for more money to show up to pay for our rooms and my faith started to blossom and grow. 

 

I found that the place where our hopes reside is the place where we encounter the tangible love of God. God continued to support us, no matter what man did or said. Because no man or spiritual power has the ability to overrule God. Something magnificent happens when we put our lives in God’s hands and take a risk of faith. 

 

I have realized that those people who cannot tolerate imperfect people–well–they are just not my people. Because I love imperfect and weird people. I love people who show their authentic colors and shine their light on the world. 

 

Perfection is never what God wants from us. We were saved by grace and it was not by being perfect. Satan was the one obsessed with perfection, but God loves us unconditionally. 

 

I have found that most of my own struggles have come from being in the way of what God wants to do in my life. I have been my own resistance when I allowed myself to be moved by fear.

 

Many years ago I started receiving mind-blowing encounters with the Holy Spirit. God revealed things to me that opened my eyes to revelations that have never been exposed before. It was unbelievable and I was in complete awe and wonder. 

 

That all happened just before I took the huge leap of faith and followed God on this journey. During that time before I left, I wrote a massively wonderful and really big book. 

 

The book is so captivating and God promised me that it would become a bestseller. In the book, I shared the formula that God had given me and all of the breathtaking encounters too. Like Paul writing parts of the New Testament, while still imprisoned, I was writing these massive revelations while imprisoned by many things. 

 

Then, God, had me set aside the book because the rest of the revelations would come from the life lessons that God would show me during the journey. That is exactly what happened too! 

 

Now as I look back, I can see that there are many things that I need to re-write. I also know that there are just a couple more things that I need to do for my personal miracle to take place so that I can write the final chapter. 

 

My journey has basically been of God healing me of fears and many of those fears were attached to addictions. Addictions have many facets and one of mine was fearful or negative thinking. We can even be addicted to being judgemental. It took so much to change the way that I thought about things.

 

God’s promises have been transforming my mind so that I can move in His reflection in perfect harmony. 

 

I am not perfect, but that is why God chose me for this service. God’s power pours out of my place of weakness. We just have to be willing and obedient. 

 

God had healed me of a 20-plus-year smoking addiction and He did it miraculously with no cravings. You can read about that here: https://diamondsfromthedust.com/2019/02/21/when-god-says-its-time/

 

Seeing the promise of my book fulfilled meant facing my fears and getting healed of all of the fear and doubt that kept me from receiving and believing.

 

 I was so ashamed of how my life became and I started to procrastinate doing the things that God showed me to do to get my transformation because I was hurting so much. 

 

Every day for years, I had put off what I knew that I needed to do and I would say “I’ll start tomorrow”. Last night I was talking to a close friend about all of this and out of the blue she said, “you just need to face your biggest fear and everything will change”. 

 

I told her that I was going to start doing what I had been delaying after today–because today is my birthday and I wanted to have “one last day” of waiting. But then she corrected me and said that instead of waiting longer, “this should be the day when everything gets better”. 

 

Wow, so true. So that is what today is. Today is the day when everything gets better. We have to make a conscious effort to believe in the best and when we do, it will become even better than that. Today is the day that I stop putting off facing my fears and finally finish my book. 

 

This book is not only going to change my life but it is going to have a wonderful effect on so many lives. It will be like fresh water pouring out upon a very dry place. I am so excited to finally see this all take place! 

 

Another really powerful message that God said to me once was “if you continue to let fear control your decisions, then you’ll continue to allow doubt to control your life”. 

 

I love this quote so much, “The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure that you seek” (Joseph Campbell). That is powerful. 

 

The Lord told me that those fears were like giants that hide in dark caves. It is much like an irritant that hides in a shell and causes the shell to protect itself by creating the nacre that forms a pearl. However, when we pass through our fears, we’ll be given a valuable pearl of our heart longings as a treasure. 

 

God also told me that facing our fears will not go away until we walk through them. They will continue to stand in the way and block us from becoming all that we are destined to become. 

 

Yet when we do pass through that cave of fear, then we will see God’s love as our hopes become the tangible outcome. We will discover that those fears were lies and they were only shadows playing tricks in the darkness. 

 

This will be a time of great wonders and marvelous treasures revealed–for those who are willing to enter the cave of facing their fears and discovering that those fears were nothing. 

 

There will be treasures found in the darkness. We will be blessed by moving in the direction that we are afraid of and seeing God’s intentional love take the place of what was so terrifying and dreaded.

 

The opposite of your fears is a promise. This will be the day when everything gets better~

 

I encourage you to join me as we move in the direction of our fears and bring out the pearls that were hidden for us in the deep darkness. We will see that there was nothing to fear and it will be the place where everything gets better. 

 

Oh, and lastly…I am no longer counting my age with each birthday lol. 

 

💚 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞

 

 

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