Gift of Laughter
One day last week, I had a very awakening encounter with God. In the encounter, God called me weeping. I could feel the pain that God felt, and it was heartbreaking. My whole body was immersed in that grief as it happened, and I could feel God’s heart of love for His children in a way that I never have before.
God told me to “quarantine” away from all social media and unnecessary socializing for a period of time.
Then the Lord told me that there were waves of fear flowing through those social media places, and it was spreading like a wildfire and burning up peoples harvests of faith. The saddest part is God also told me that there were several who have died from being burned by fears and it was so devastating to the Lord.
As anyone who follows the blog knows, I am going through life or death situations every day that require me to stay in faith, in order to survive. God showed me that I was going to go through a very serious faith test and that it would be life or death for me.
So it was crucial that I fasted from social media and most interactions, except for those that God has directed me to engage in. I want to apologize to those I have not responded to. I am not ignoring you, but I am obeying God and following the instructions given for me to do.
That sobering moment that really brought me into alertness, to stay in a mindset of faith and not worry, fear, or doubting.
After the encounter was over, I obeyed God and disconnected my attention from all social media and I put a “pause” on most social interactions. God gave me some of my faith reward in the amount of $400 as a sweet, unexpected gift. However, God required that I give Him back $100, even though I really needed it badly.
I gave the $100 back to God, but it was hard because I needed it for my refuge, and I was afraid of suffering from having no place to go. Then I used what I had left to pay for our room and the bills that I had due.
Without delay, God put me into the days of faith testing, and it was harsh. I had to be alert constantly and be aware of every thought that I allowed myself to entertain.
I spent the majority of my time in God’s words and “seeing” His promises fulfilled. There were some moments when I almost got burned by the fires of fear, like when I had to drive past the place where we sat in the car waiting on God before. The wound often holds hidden fears until healed…
It took all of my strength to not think about anything that I didn’t want to go through, and to only think about what God had promised would happen. My anchor through all of it was found in Hebrews 11:11.
I told myself that God had the power to fulfill His words. Because I think somewhere deep down, I doubted God’s power to keep His promise, because of my disappointments that I had before. I am walking through some terrifying things, expanding by faith, and healing all that the same time. There is so much going on, LOL.
Over and over, I would say to myself, “GOD IS ABLE TO KEEP HIS PROMISES AND HAS ALL POWER TO DO IT”
And, Hebrews 11:11“By faith even Sarah herself received the ability to conceive [a child], even [when she was long] past the normal age for it, because she considered Him who had given her the promise to be reliable and true [to His word]”
The situation started to get intense because my room was scheduled to check out in the morning, but I didn’t want to leave. I had no money left, and it was getting hard to not think about what could happen to us.
I went to bed that night with hopes that I would wake up to love support from God from His promise to provide for us, but when I woke up, there was nothing to be found. So I started to pack the room and prepare for what may come.
Just about 2 hours before we had to evacuate the room, I was surprised by someone buying us 4 nights at the same hotel where we were staying! The money that I gave to God that I had hoped to cover us one night was returned to me for 4 nights!
I was so relieved that the fire was put out and that I could finally inhale and breathe again! We are still believing for God to show up according to His promise to cover our food needs, but after seeing this miracle, my hopes have been rejuvenated.
When we are willing to believe that God has the power to do what He promised, then He will show up with even more than we expect. We get the outcome that we put all of our faith and trust into…and sometimes it is even better than what we had in mind.
May God give you the gift of laughter like He did for Sarah, but fulfilling His word that seems so impossible to do. May the Lord take you by surprise and cause overwhelming joy to flood your eyes!
Have a beautiful day!
“God has graced me with the gift of laughter! To be sure, everyone who hears my story will laugh with me” Genesis 21:6